Reminds me of you. And only you.

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"Only once in your life, I truly believe, you find someone who can completely turn your world around.

You tell them things that you've never shared with another soul and they absorb everything you say and actually want to hear more.

You share hope for the future, dreams that will never come true, goals that were never achieved and the many disappointments life has thrown at you.

When something wonderful happens, you can't wait to tell them about it, knowing they will share in your excitement.

They are not embarrassed to cry with you when you are hurting or laugh with you when you make a fool of yourself.

Never do they hurt your feelings or make you feel like you are not good enough, but rather they build you up and show you the things about yourself that make you special and even beautiful.

There is never any pressure, jealousy or competition but only a quiet calmness when they are around.

You can be yourself and not worry about what they will think of you because they love you for who you are.

The things that seem insignificant to most people such as note, song or walk become invaluable treasures kept safe in your heart to cherish forever.

Memories of your childhood come back and are so clear and vivid it's like being young again.

Colors seem brighter and more brilliant.

Laughter seems part of daily life where before it was infrequent or didn't exist at all.

A phone call or two during the day helps to get you through a long day's work and always brings a smile to your face.

In their presence, there's no need for continuous conversation, but you're quite content in just having them nearby.

Things that never interested you before become fascinating because you know they are important to this person who is so special to you.

You think of this person on every occasion and in everything you do.

Simple things bring them to mind like a pale blue sky, gentle wind or even a storm cloud on the horizon.

You open your heart knowing that there's a chance it may be broken one day and in opening your heart, you experience a love and joy that you never dreamed possible.

You find that being vulnerable is the only way to allow your heart to feel true pleasure that's so real it scares you.

You find strength in knowing you have a true friend and possibly a soul mate who will remain loyal to the end.

Life seems completely different, exciting and worthwhile.

Your only hope and security is in knowing that they are a part of your life."

p/s : So true. And I'm broken inside. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.

Back to Basic XD

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Aku bangun awal harini ! Yes, awal la ni -.- japgi nak pegi Pudu amek tiket balik Arau. Ada KKEC (Komander Kesatria Endurance Challenge). Selalunya rasa macam excited gila nak balik Arau, tapi harini rasa macam malas je. Mengapakah? Hee. 

Oh ya, semalam Naim ada hantar cookies. Sumpah ini cookies sedap, murah pula tuuu. Aku beli dua balang haritu 100 ketul - RM46. Dah nama pun dua balang, dua hari lenyaplah beliau. Ni pun akak cafe bawah yang order. Gerrrram rasa macam nak makan je pastu takyah bagi kat dia. Gahaha. Kenapa kau perlu menayangkan dirimu di hadapanku wahai balang? Ohh ! >.<

Dahla, pepagi dah merepek -.- nak gi mandi, packing barang semua, then goncang goncang katil Miera paksa teman pegi Pudu. Bye olls~

p/s ; Kalau kita benci someone, semua yang dia buat mesti jadi salah kan? Kalau kita sayang, semua dia buat jadi betul. Ish, kesian gila kat someone yang dibenci tu. *geleng geleng kepala* 

New beginning :D

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Okay dah sampai hostel. Tapi sumpah malas gila nak unpack barang. Kihkih. Dan alhamdulillah, result okay. Better than last sem. So sem depan kena naik lagi ke? Err. Jangan tipu, feeling tu ada kat semua orang. Bila dah duduk kat atas, rasa takut nak berada di bawah memuncak muncak. Oh tidak ! Baik aku dok bawah je *gila tak berwawasan* 

Happy moments, praise God. Difficult moments, seek God. Painful moments, trust God. Every moment, thank God.

Tiada chemistry kah antara aku dan kasut?

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Aku suka kasut. Tak tipu aku memang suka kasut. Haha. Aku pun tak sure kasut aku banyak mana. Jap nak kira. *thinking thinking* oh ada 5, kasut sahaja. Tak campur selipar jepun, sandal dan sebagainya. Haha. So basically, aku dah tak perlu kasut. Sebab aku dok pakai pun satu je. Yang lain tu pakai sekali pastu simpan. Oh sangat berbaloi membelinya -.-

Tapi aku bukan nak cakap pasal berapa banyak kasut aku pun. Nak cakap betapa kecilnya hati aku dengan kasut kasut di Malaysia. Tahukah anda mengapa?

Pagi tadi aku pegi AS Mall dengan mak aku. Aku jumpa satu kasut yang comel, lantas aku meminta saiz aku kepada promoter tersebut. Tunggu tunggu tunggu, takde saiz. Okaylah, first choice memang selalu takde saiz. Kfine. Tu kat tingkat atas. Turun pulak tingkat bawah, usha usha usha kasut, ada satu comel. Aku tengok tag dia, saiz 36 ada lagi satu ! Maka hati aku pun berbunga bunga riang. Dengan riaknya aku menyuruh promoter tersebut mengambil saiz aku. Sekeluarnya *ada ke word ni?* beliau daripada stor, beliau membawa berita yang sangat menghiris kalbuku. Saiz habis -.- oh di saat itu terasa ingin membunuh diri. 'Takpe takpe ada selipar polkadot kaler pink tepi tu saiz 5. Rembat iffa rembat', bisik hati kecilku. Agaga dapat selipar !

Petang tu keluar melepak dengan Azilah dan Sam. Punyelah meriah pusing pusing shopping. Last last sampai Pacific. Keluar masuk kedai kasut, aku terlihat ada satu kasut high cut, dia macam boot gak ah aku pun taktau nak describe macamana. Kasut itu seolah olah berada di bawah cahaya spotlight dimana keadaan sekeliling gelap tidak bercahaya. Mata aku dah bersinar sinar. Lalu aku mengambil kasut tersebut, tengok tag, dan SHOOT ! saiz tadek. Dammit !

Maka dengan hati yang mendung serta membawa kesedihan yang besar bak orang mengandung, aku pergi membawa diri ke Food Court. Makan makan makan, aku mendapat satu azam. Aku tak kira aku nak beli jugak kasut tu tak kire dia besar ke kecik ! Determination itu penting ! Hahaha. And at last, aku beli jugak kasut tu, saiz 38. Tapi tak lah besar mana. Maybe sebab cutting dia memang kecik kot.

Conclusionnya, aku ingin menegakkan keadilan bagi insan insan yang sesaiz dengan aku. Mengapa kami perlu bersusah payah mencari kasut? Mengapa tidak dibuat lebih banyak stok kasut saiz kami? Mengapaaaa?! Ini tidak adil tidak adil bagikuuuuuu~

Stop judging me.

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Just done with a very long conversation with this one makhluk. He doesn't even know me. Memanglah dulu satu sekolah, tapi time sekolah dulu mana ada aku kenal dia pun. Dia pun bukannya kenal aku. Ni pun baru dok contact contact camtu dekat facebook sebab penyakit dia suka kacau orang. Start kenal kenal, dia start to call me, okay fine aku layan jelah. Pastu dengan sesuka suki, he starts to make judgement about me based on cara aku cakap, percakapan aku. Pastu bila aku deny apa yang dia cakap, dia cakap aku takleh terima teguran. Apakah?

Hoi hang kenai aku tak sampai sebulan hang dah nak cakap aku macam macam pasepa? Hang cakap aku ketegaq, ignorant, pentingkan diri, tak boleh terima teguran, tak matang, berfikiran sempit, apa lagi APA LAGI? Takkan lah hang baru kenai aku sat aku nak cerita aku ni baik suka tolong orang penyayang sopan santun kat hang? I'm not going to impress you pun lah. Bila aku cakap hang tak kenai aku, hang kata i'm not supposed to deny what you said. Sepatutnya aku terima ja. Kalau tak betoi takpalah, kalau betoi cuba ubah. Pastu hang sukalah orang anggap perangai hg macam cibai pon?

Weyy kalau hang kawan aku laaaaaama dah, aku tak kesah la. Ni hang dok kata aku macam macam, hang judge aku pelik pelik, pastu hang tak bagi aku defend diri. Kata aku ni suka bangkang hang cakap, pastu hang nak suruh aku diam ja dengaq hang dok kata kat aku macam macam. Boleh tak hang faham hang tu stranger? You dont even know me so shut up. Hang kata kalau aku bukan macam yang hang cakap, then fine. Through my action nanti, hang lambat laun akan tau jugak perangai aku sebenaq macamana. Tapi kenapa hang kena kata jugak macam macam kat aku? Tak perlu kot.

Hang kata aku tak matang, hang tak pernah tau kot kehidupan aku macamana. Hang tak pernah tau kot apa yang pernah aku lalui. Hang takkan pernah tau kot. Hang kata perangai aku ni macam perangai hang time form 3? Fine, fine. Like you know me, kan. Hang cakap fikiran aku sempit. Hang pernah tau ka dunia mana aku hidup? Hang pernah rasa dapat kawan kawan macam aku dapat? Hang bajet hang bagus sangat? Seriously I dont need a friend like you. You dont even give me a chance to show my true self. Yet you said you are my friend.

I am so sick of this. I can handle it on the first place but this is just too much. Just get lost. Go die in a hole.

The real art of conversation is not only to say the right thing in the right place but to leave unsaid the wrong thing at the tempting moment.

Owhh Hoyyy !

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Aku tulis entry ni sebab aku bosan. Yes, I'm bored. Currently, I'm at home enjoying my 2 weeks semester break. Dan sebenarnya aku malas nak update entry dekat kolej sebab semua orang pun menyibuk nak tengok aku nak tulis ape. Lek ah derr, aku dah publish korang tengok lahh. Hohh *padahal sorang pun taktau aku ada blog* teehee.

Okay, what am I going to write today? Haha honestly aku pun takde idea. Aku tengok orang lain punya entry kan, macam berfaedah sangat je untuk orang lain. Tapi blog aku ni sampah sarap je banyak. Haha tapi kesah pulak aku, bukan ada orang baca pun aite? ;)

Rasa macam nak share satu perasaan dengan korang. Pernah tak rasa macam ada kawan tapi better tak payah ada kawan macam tu tapi korang sayang nak tinggal sebab dah sangat close? Haha complicatednyaa kan? I've got a friend. Yeah, she's way smarter than me, prettier than me, and semua dia lebih dari aku lah pendek cerita. But sometimes, bila dia ada problem, well okay dia cerita kat aku. Then bila aku macam tolong bagi solution, dia tak pernah nak dengar pun. Semua aku salah. Aku taktau apa yang dia rasa bla bla bla.

Kadang kadang rasa macam useless. Eh kau kenapa? Aku cakap benda betul apa. Then lagi satu, dia suka sangat look down kat aku. Like; 

Situation A : Eleh, kau belajar ape sangat je. Senang je patut kau rilek je.

Situation B : Eh budak laki tu suka kau? Kesian kau kan orang suka kau semua stok macamtu.

Situation C : Kau tak faham aku lah. Kau tu duduk bawah batu, aku ni orang zaman moden !

K fine k fine. So shut up and blah la. Apsal semua kau nak cerita kat aku lagi? Kau ingat this world revolves around you je ke? Memanglah kau sorang je ada feeling semua tu. Selambe je kau mentanglah selalu aku diam je. Sobsob apelah dosaku diperlakukan begini T_T